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[tomomichi]

The first two drafts of this post were somewhat middle of the road wanky. I was whining at anxietygrrl with my half-assed post and she said, "You need to just go all out balls-to-the-wall with your wank one of these days."

So. *deep breath*

I am fucking SICK AND TIRED of the goddamned Prince of Tennis fandom because people cannot be fucking considerate or have such huge fucking chips on their shoulders they've turned themselves into fucking martyrs or they're just completely lacking in any sort of basic human decency. I mean, I LOVED this series with all of my HEART AND SOUL and certain factions within the fandom are RUINING IT, completely and utterly TARNISHING my love for this series! And that makes me SO FUCKING MAD that I could just... just... just kick small puppies or something! *rages*

And I've tried my DAMNDEST to be polite and helpful and tolerant, but I can't keep getting sand thrown in my face day after day and so I am going to take my fucking ball and GO HOME. Or at least part of my ball. OTHER sections of the fandom have been really nice and I like promoting them as much as I can, but there are other sections (namely the TezuAto fandom that, despite the influx of SOME new--and wonderfully darling--blood has become a raging cesspool of intolerance and hate and all things that make me RUN from a pairing because, dammit, I want to SPARKLE over the things I love, not rage and snarl at other factions) that make me INSANE and thus I want absolutely no association with them anymore. All TezuAto links have been CULLED FROM THE SITE! I want absolutely no assiciation between myself and them EVER AGAIN!

I hope you're all happy. What could have been something grand and glorious has turned into fucking ASHES because of the way you handled things. No, on second thought, I hope you're NOT happy because you've certainly made ME unhappy. I hope you all burn in hell. And I almost NEVER say that, certainly not in public, but THAT'S HOW FAR YOU'VE PUSHED ME.

Oh, and Fleeting Fancies has been updated! ^_^v






Amanda: Fandom people have what I like to call Internet Aspberger's. They miss the obvious social cues.

Is it any wonder I love and adore her?

Comments

[rondaview.livejournal.com]

Relative newbie to PoT fandom, but -

Why the TezuAto faction? Why? That is so inconvenient because nnngh IT IS SO MY OTP ;___; and I take my cue from your recs site and why do they have to be the way they are and what did they do and most importantly why am I so curious about what's happened? ("a lot of people are happily into the fandom and never see even a HINT of wank." one said person would be me. which i'm thankful for, but. curiousity killed the cat & etc, that kind of thing.)

...What is this, a pairings war? I've...never really been into *into* fandom in that snarling and blood and hair-tearing is a common sight, but...I can't understand how things could get so serious. From a casual fan's standpoint, even from a massively In Love With TezuAto Shipper's standpoint - are they, what, huddling in corners and hissing, "Oh, my, God, Betty, just look at that TezuFuji/Atoji/TezuRyoFuji/AtoOshi/AtoKabaji/Ato-everyone/etcinfinity fan and what she's writing/drawing and !!! how dare they pair our preciousss Ore-sama off with anyone else etc" and so on and so forth? Wottheheck? Because if they do, why? Isn't that a completely illogical and a waste of time to boot? Dude. Where's the love? ?______?

(To be fair, on the first readthrough I thought you really were, uh, serious. "ASHES" and "BURN IN HELL" and all that aside. I was wondering at that "^___^V" face at the end though, it seemed so out of place. XDDD)

[beckymarie.livejournal.com]

Even as I was writing my little mock rant above, I knew I wasn't going to step completely away from the pairing, because as irritated as I get with some things, I still love the characters and their relationship with each other. I'm not sure what I'm going to do, because... I mean, I can't change other people, I'm not even going to try because that's not fair and it would be a futile effort anyway. What I can change is my own level of involvement and for right this minute, I needed to step away and deal with my feelings of irritation. (I don't regret this little escapade, I still think it's funny--even if OMG U ALL DUN APPERERATE ME!!!ichi1!--but I might have gone a little more over the top if I'd known. OMG I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF BY SLITTING MY WRISTS BECAUSE OF THE TRAUMA YOU ALL HAVE INFLICTED ON ME! AND THEN SEND YOU MY THERAPIST'S BILL BECAUSE MY PROBLEMS ARE ALL *YOUR* FAULT, YOU SHITTY FANDOM! )

I'm not sure how to answer the whole pairings war thing because... yeah, it's there, but if you're further towards the fringes than the epicentre of the Tenipuri storm, you probably don't notice them. Or maybe you don't care 'cause you don't see it over and over from the same people like some of us do. Or maybe you have a thicker skin. Or maybe it's not YOUR pairing getting the snotty attitude. Whatever reason. *grin* (It's much, much better than it used to be. But every once in awhile, still....) We're not at GW pairing wars level yet, but put us on Cartoon Network and THEN see what happens. ^_~ (THAT IS A JOKE. NO ONE TAKE THE IDEA SERIOUSLY. *twitches* ^_~)

I love TezuAto. I'll always love it. I wish I had a better answer for what to do about it, because I love helping a little to promote it in a way that I think is better for the "cause" of it. Just... right now... I know this sounds wanky as all hell, but at the end of the day I am the one who has to live with myself and my actions and whatever role I play in a fandom, great or small. (Even if I was only talking to ONE PERSON, my role in the fandom is still my own actions.) And I'm not sure I'm comfortable with providing sparklies to people I feel have misbehaved. The majority of the people in the fandom are absolute dears and I cherish them deeply, but... I'm not sure how to... *waves hands* continue doing what I'm doing while getting around my irritation with the fandom.

Excuse me. I'll go get the mop to clean up my spooge on the walls here. ^_~